Reflections

Reading a friend's post on anger management made me think about myself. Lately, M said I've had some anger issues that I always take out on him. Any little thing can set me off. I used to be proud of myself for not letting things get to me and that it used to take a lot for me to get mad. Now I feel like I've become a totally different person although I may appear to be the same to most. Most of the time, I'm not even angry at him but I take it out on him, all those feelings that I have suppressed. Part of this has to do with me knowing that other people will not put up with my crap but I know that he will. I feel bad for him sometimes. I think it's so easy to act this way toward loved ones. Subconsciously we would like to avoid confrontations with those who caused us grief so to compensate that confrontation, we tend to take it out on an "easy target" who would not fight back or retaliate.

Isn't it ironic that we hurt those we love and are scared of those who hurt us????

ramblings...

For the most part, I've enjoyed reading others' blogs than writing my own. It seems that blogging provides another world, free of judgment (or so we think), for us to be ourselves, to express our deepest thoughts, to jot down something that's not quite a thought yet but felt important enough to record it. I tried doing the same with mine and that doesn't seem to work too well. The only thing that comes out of me is the daily happenings in my life and in those around me. Does that mean I'm not deep? or perhaps it's a tiring process to express my thoughts in writing? Ecck...too much thinking for an early morning...Time to get ready for work....Reality!!!

Back from vacation

I've been back from my trip for over a week but still haven't had a chance to post. Well for one, part of my post about the trip is on my laptop, which Mike has taken possession at night when he has his own =P Anyway, the trip was good. For some reason, I don't miss Guam as much as I did two years ago. I wonder if it's because it was so hot this time & I was sick so I couldn't wait to get out of there. I updated some pics from Hawaii onto Picasa if you'd like to check them out =)

Vacation ... here I come!

Two days before I take off for my 2-week trip to Guam and I'm still sick. Sigh..I guess all the stress from the past couple weeks took a toll on my body. I've never driven so much before. For a week, I stayed in L.A. so I had to drive for an hour to/from work then drove to SF for M's final move-out. I'm prone to getting sick that was enough to knock me out...haha =)

It's time for me to get away for a while. I've been looking forward to this trip. I'm so excited!! We'll have two days layover in Hawaii this time. I wish we have more time to explore Honolulu. Oh well, we'll just have to do as much as we can. M will be my tour guide since has has been there many times. He insisted that we can only bring one carryon so we can bring back a cake to Guam. Supposedly, there's a famous bakery that he used to go to when he was a little kid. We'll have to see how good the cake is. Maybe I'll post pics later to share =)

Earthquake country

Last Tuesday was the first time I've felt such a strong earthquake in such a long time. I remember standing in my boss' office talking, then she suddenly pointed to the ceiling. Here I was thinking there was probably dust on my head, so I grabbed a piece of paper to cover my head. Then I started feeling the room shaking stronger and stronger. Next thing I knew was my boss ducking under her desk and me crawling under her desk for cover. The whole thing lasted about 10 seconds but it seemed forever. It happened during M's first day of the bar. He told me later some pieces of the chandelier fell down. During the whole ordeal, CA-natives quickly grabbed their laptop, went under the desk and continued typing the answers while non-CA residents, who have never experienced an earthquake, panicked & didn't know what to do. Although I feel bad for them having to go through that, It must have been a pretty funny scene.

A comeback for a brand new start

I'm back!!! After 4 years of hiatus, I finally decided to start blogging again. Well back in the days, we called it xanga. So many online journal sites have popped up since then and I feel so old and outdated. So this attempt to make a comeback not only allows me to be connected with my friends again, it also allows me to be back in touch with my inner self.

So why today out of many other days??? In many ways, today is a significant day for both of us. I just helped Mike (whom we shall refer to as Modoca) check into the hotel for his bar exam next week. I guess three years of law school eventually boil down to only three days of exam taking, which shall determine your future forever. Good luck, Mr. Modoca! You can do it! We all have faith in you.