Reflections

Reading a friend's post on anger management made me think about myself. Lately, M said I've had some anger issues that I always take out on him. Any little thing can set me off. I used to be proud of myself for not letting things get to me and that it used to take a lot for me to get mad. Now I feel like I've become a totally different person although I may appear to be the same to most. Most of the time, I'm not even angry at him but I take it out on him, all those feelings that I have suppressed. Part of this has to do with me knowing that other people will not put up with my crap but I know that he will. I feel bad for him sometimes. I think it's so easy to act this way toward loved ones. Subconsciously we would like to avoid confrontations with those who caused us grief so to compensate that confrontation, we tend to take it out on an "easy target" who would not fight back or retaliate.

Isn't it ironic that we hurt those we love and are scared of those who hurt us????